- Priscilla Johnson, Alice Neel
My ring. I’m still wearing my it. I’m not totally ready to take it off. As of today, George is still wearing his. The one on George’s finger isn’t the original– it’s Ring 3.0. He lost Ring 1 years ago when he took it off to properly moisturize his hands at the end of a business flight. Who the fuck does that? Who takes their wedding ring off to moisturize their hand while they're on a plane? He got a replacement, then lost that one in a hotel room. I didn’t think about it too much at the time, but I guess it does seem a little strange.
So like a pedophile going around the neighborhood announcing his guilt, I call my friends one by one and tell them that we are split because I can see it’s actually happening now. Part of me was holding out I guess, not believing it is really happening. Some of them come over and sit and nod while I bawl it out. Some of them cry too. I think this is how it’s supposed to happen. Right? I’m supposed to be sad all the time. I’m supposed to be a mess who has a glass a wine before talking to her kid. I’m supposed to break down with strangers and friends alike. How much more of this until I pull my shit together? Over ten years gone. But gone? The feeling of uncoupling has been there for so long, since the birth of Le Kid, but this was the wrong way to do it. In a fight, in contempt and in anger. As sloppy as it gets.
So like a pedophile going around the neighborhood announcing his guilt, I call my friends one by one and tell them that we are split because I can see it’s actually happening now. Part of me was holding out I guess, not believing it is really happening. Some of them come over and sit and nod while I bawl it out. Some of them cry too. I think this is how it’s supposed to happen. Right? I’m supposed to be sad all the time. I’m supposed to be a mess who has a glass a wine before talking to her kid. I’m supposed to break down with strangers and friends alike. How much more of this until I pull my shit together? Over ten years gone. But gone? The feeling of uncoupling has been there for so long, since the birth of Le Kid, but this was the wrong way to do it. In a fight, in contempt and in anger. As sloppy as it gets.